Overwhelmed

So, lately in my life I become overwhelmed with joy and complete happiness that it feels like my heart is going to burst! Why do you ask? Simple. His name is Griffin. I know what you're thinking. Another post about your son? Come on, can't you get over that he is wonderful and move on? Well, my response to that is no. I cannot get over it and I do not know if I ever will. As long as Griffin is here I think I will remain astonished by the grace of God to give me such a precious, sweet gift. I am overwhelmed by God's gift of Griffin. I was explaining this to Tyler earlier this evening and began to wonder why I am not constantly overwhelmed by God's gift of Jesus to me. Griffin makes me think of the Lord all the time, because I know it is Him who has given this child to us. But I slowly realized that this gift could so easily become an idol in my life as well. I have to beware of this in my heart and mind. I must love Griffin, but not worship him. I must worship the Giver and not the gift. Oh how this is so hard sometimes for me! I pray that the Lord will just use Griffin to draw me nearer to Him and to the cross. I want to love Griffin and Tyler out of love for my Savior and Lord.
Anyways, Griffin is so wonderful and sweet and cuddly and I love how he smiles up at me when he's nursing. I love how he hides his face in the crevice of my arm when he's being bashful. I love his adorable, pudgy nose. I love the way he smells. I love to take care of him whether it is changing his diaper or wiping his nose. I love being at home with him and getting to spend every day with him. I love the way he coos at night in his bed before he falls asleep. I love how he sucks his thumb to calm himself down. I love that he is part Tyler and part me. It's just so incredible. I am so thankful. But despite all these wonderful things, I must love Jesus more, period. So, I pray that we will, that Tyler and I will never put our children before the Lord, that He will be first and that God will give us the grace to always be teaching this to our children, to love the Lord their God with all their hearts, minds and strength and to have no idols before Him.