Last days with mom

Tomorrow will be the last day for my mom to be here with us. I have come to realization that she IS LEAVING. I think I am ready, however. I think we (Tyler and I) are ready. We don't want her to go, but know it's whats best and are ready to take on parenthood by ourselves. I feel comfortable knowing I will be at home with Griffin each day. I know the Lord will help me each day. My mom has been a special gift to us from the Lord these last two weeks. She has helped me get adjusted and to feel confident in doing my motherly duties for Griffin. I didn't really realize small things would be kinda scarey, like giving him a bath all by myself. My and I have come to the conclusion that little baby boys are a wee bit harder to take care of after they're born. You have to take care of different things, and they like to shoot you almost in the face when you're changing their diaper. I need to get a shield! I have learned so much in these last two weeks. I def understand when they say parenthood will sanctify you. God has taught me so much patience that I thought I already had but apparently did not. He has taught me selflessness and a love for this sweet baby that is truly different than any other love. I have analized it some: I love God most, then I love Tyler next most, and now I love Griffin next next most. All the loves are different. It's interesting figuring out this new love for your child, a child you haven't had, and now have. All I know is that I do love him and it has to be a selfless love. I have to die to myself so much, but I wouldn't want to do anything else.
Griffin has been a wonderful baby so far. He sleeps well, eats well, and is just a joy to have.

So, my mom will leave on Tues. and it will be just fine. I will cry. I will miss her. But it's time to experience parenthood all by ourselves, it's the next step. It will be an adventure, as it has been already, and it will be wonderful. :)