having a daughter, etc...

I just read a friend of a friend's blog that just had a baby girl March 1st. It caused me to really start thinking of this baby sister growing inside me and of the day she will come. Will she come on June 20th, her due date, like her big brother did? or will she come early or late? I often feel bad that I do not think about her more. I know she is in there, growing and developing, but I guess it just seems so surreal that she is, and that she is a precious baby GIRL. I also have really been treasuring all my days with Griffin, realizing that soon it won't just be me and him all day every day, which makes me sad in a way, not that I'm not excited to meet this new baby girl, though. I just have loved staying home with Griffin these last two years. TWO YEARS! that is so crazy to me! It seems like less time. I love him so much. He will always be my baby boy. He is my first baby, and will always be so, so special to me. These last two years spent with him have been the highlight of my life. They have been the sweetest times. I will hold them so close to my heart all my life. I will miss it just being me and him, and somehow I sense that he also knows that our special "me and him time" is almost over. This evening he grabbed my hand, looked into my eyes and said "wuv you." This was the first time he's told me he loves me on his own. I usually say it and ask him to repeat it to me. My heart melted needless to say. He is just so sweet and such a remarkable child that I definitely do not deserve as my child. I am so thankful for him.

I know I am going to love this baby girl just as much as Griffin and when the third one comes along, I'll be sad that it won't just be me, Griffin, and sister anymore. haha.. not that I won't be thankful and excited to have a third.

Anyways, I am treasuring and pondering all these things in my heart lately-being pregnant, knowing she is a girl, and these last 3 months with just Griffin.