So today was hard, I'm going to admit it. I cried several times. (pregnancy hormones were a factor I'm sure) I have just become so sentimental about our house. And not to mention I am missing Tyler like crazy! He is in Honduras with our new church staff on a missions scouting trip. He has never been out of the country w/ out me! He also isn't able to call me. It was so hard not getting to talk to him today. I am so spoiled! I am used to being able to reach him at all times, so it was very weird today.
My good friend, Jan, kept griffin for me today so I could pack some more without having interruptions and it was very nice but very strange being ALONE! Now my dad was encouraging me about all this alone time I'm getting to have and he told me to enjoy the solitude because soon I'll be so busy with a newborn and toddler that I'll be dreaming of some solitude. So why did I not enjoy my house being silent today? I love having griffin running around the house, dragging all his toys all over the place. I even love him interrupting me wanting me to play with him for a bit or read a book. I love hearing him and tyler wrestling in the living room. Isnt that what a home is for? And I cannot wait to have this sweet baby girl joining in the noise making and filling out home with more life and laughter.
I have had so much time to think today, and my mind could not be kept from thinking of my family and my heart was constantly full of thankfulness to God for blessing me with them. I realized how much I would miss them if they were not with me, and how much I enjoy them each day.
I also kept thinking about our house that will soon be someone elses. This is Tylers and mines first house that we purchased. It was where we brought griffin home from the hospital and where griffin and i played all summer in the backyard making mudpies and swinging. It is where we have shared so many fun memories as a family. It will always be our new Mexico house, our first street to live on, taking walks with griffin up and down it. I will miss so much about it. I miss griffins nursey, the tree in middle of the backyard, all the creeks and noises it makes as you walk down the hall or open a certain door.
I know all this sounds a tad bit silly, but its how I feel. I have loved this house since the first day we walked into it to look at it with our realitor. It has been our home for 3 1/2 years and it will always be special to me.
It is, however, just a house. And you would think it wouldnt be that big of a deal to just pack up and leave. I am just thanking God for providing us with such a sweet and perfect first house. And I know that it really isn't the house in of itself that I have loved so dearly, but the precious times we have had here together as a family with our first child. It has been the best 3 1/2 yrs of my life, and I will always treasure the time we had here.
2 comments:
Oh Haley...I can only imagine the emotions your having right now. Change is so exciting yet so hard all at the same time. Plus any time our husbands are gone it makes things that much harder. :)
So excited for you guys! I know God is going to use you all to bring glory to His name in Georgetown! :)
Hello Haley :) First time I've checked out your blog in a long time! I got kinda teary reading your entry just now. When I had to be alone packing up for Belize, I had some of the same feelings... yet we haven't had our "first home together" for very long nor have we any children. ;) Praying for ya'll. Going to miss you all very much. I'll look forward to reading about your new adventures.
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